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"Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need."  Matthew 6:33

I don't know how it is for you but when reality hits, it is not a love tap but it hits me hard.  I love football so that is the best analogy I can relate to, a bone-jarring, knock the wind out of you, what just happened kind of hit.

These past couple of months have been like that for me.  I am a closer to 50 than I want to be woman.  A woman who has had the blessed honor of being home the past 20 years to raise my kids, help my husband with his painting business and realize my hearts desire is to serve the Lord by mentoring and encouraging women. 

Just like I am not the same woman who left the job market 20 years ago, neither is the world I am re-entering.  I am learning a whole lot about myself.  Enter reality, I am returning to school and attempting to re-enter the job market with as much confidence and grace as I can muster.  There have been many, many humbling moments for me, I will humor you by sharing a few of them:  

• School, well school doesn't even resemble learning as I remember.  I sit in a classroom consisting of computers and other folks just like me trying to absorb and keep up with the ever-changing world. 
•  I've learned my resume is antiquated and that there is a much greater chance of a computer scanning my resume looking for "keywords" than there is a human being ever seeing it.  And on the off-chance a human does look at it, they will scan it for no more 10-seconds and decide whether I am worthy of an interview.  
• I will just be honest here, as much as I rebel instead of embrace the joys of aging, it is a factor in learning. Okay, in my case it's remembering what you have learned.  Even more so as I attempt to be uber creative in my approach of finding a job. No surprise God has that covered as well:

"Even to your old age and gray hairs

I am he,

I am he who will sustain you.

I have made you and I will carry you;

I will sustain you and I will

rescue you."

Isaiah 46:4

I have to constantly and I mean constantly remind myself that God is the one who has the power to open and close doors ( or interviews in my case).

"I will give him the key to the house of David-

the highest position in the royal court.

When he opens doors, no one will

be able to close them;

when he closes doors, no one

will be able to open them."

Isaiah 22:22

As I write these words and share my heart, I don't desire pity but I hope you can relate on some level. Perhaps even chuckle with me.  But more than anything be reminded, just as I have to be reminded:

"I am the lord; there is not other God. 

I have equipped you for battle,

though you don't even know me,

so all the world from east to west

will know there is no other God.

I am the LORD, and there is no other.

I create the light and make the darkness.

I send the good times and bad times.

I, the LORD, am the one who does these things."

Isaiah 45:5-7